Okay, I decided to live by facts, instead of forcing out what isn’t really happening. I can’t want things to happen and not do anything about it, and what I want doesn’t mean have to happen. Band has really changed a lot through out the week. I’m emphasizing on A LOT! Well, things that I least wanted to happen had already happened, and things I did not expect to happen also happen. I ought to apologize for the unfinished and unclear post yesterday, I wasn’t thinking straight and I didn’t want to offend anyone, and besides, I had not sort out things that were going on in my mind. In short, I was in a pretty dazed state yesterday, all that happened really caused me to think about a lot of things. Now, I figured out, thinking about certain matters would help, but give me a headache. I decided to accept the facts in front and get along with life. My small presence wouldn’t make a huge difference anyway. I guess I’ll just stick to what I do best, and what I can do, and perhaps work things out. I will think about the matters that I really need to look out for, and not think so much about the rest. The more I think about those other things, the more I feel that things aren’t going the way they are supposed to be going. I guess I’ll just concentrate on my part of things. Being the new SL of saxophone section is going to be a tough journey for me, I know that I’ll face a lot of challenges, and difficulties. But, I also know that I’ll do my best to overcome whatever that comes in my way, in the section’s way. Life isn’t going to be easy, but I’m not going to give in, and give up on it. Besides, my life isn’t exactly the toughest of the toughest, there are so many people out there living much harder lives, and they are still coping well with them. I can’t complain about this, what is my life anyway, as compared to the life of the sickly, the poor and the unfortunate.

Today, we had lessons all the way, not a single free period. On the whole, it was pretty alright, apart from English. The teacher never fails to put us to sleep; in fact, all her lessons are super boring. I really wonder whether she really puts in effort into her lessons at all. She really ought to sit in to one of our more interesting classes, and perhaps pick out a thing or two, and put it into practice. We had assembly today, it was pretty enriching, and we took photos as well! It was about poetry made interesting, and we made up a poem for mr ho! I contributed a line as well! Well, the poem was:
Mr Ho because he has sexy socks
[one line here, but I can’t remember what]
He tries to be goldilocks
But ends up having chicken pox!
It was pretty fun on the whole! But after that, was lunch then SPA. My SPA was totally crapped up. I did the wrong experiment and low was laughing at me! That got me really upset, but whatever yeah, I’ll definitely do better the next time. Then, I went for band, helped songyang with her instrument, she opened it the wrong way round. Then, tuned and went in for combines. Mrs Chua emphasized a lot on having a good sound, good tone. In fact, good meant STRONG. I guess this is one of the band’s weaknesses. Being a all-girls’ band, we don’t exactly have the strong sound, but we believe in ourselves and we are going to work it out. So, instead of sounding like a all-girls’ band, we are going to sound like a men’s band! That’s going to be great, we are also going to get gold with honours for the next SYF. When Mrs Chua believes so much in us, it really gives me the reassurance that the band will be able to achieve such great heights. In fact, it’s not just reassurance; it’s also the confidence that we will be able to do it. Though I will not be playing, I will do my best, training the section up to achieve the impossible. It’s going to be difficult, but with the section cooperating, and working hard, persevering with every hardship we face, encouraging each other. I know we’ll be able to do it. With Mr and Mrs Chua, the journey will be easier, with them there for us to clarify all our doubts and for them to lead us along, the journey will be much simpler. I’m glad we have such wonderful and caring pair of conductors. :D I love you loads!

Sandra, if you ever read this, you know I will always be there for you. Although we’re playing different instruments now, we’re still in the same section. I know it’s difficult to adapt to these new changes. Think of it as a new experience gained, well, you get to learn a new instrument. It’s going to be difficult, but I have faith in you, I know you can do it. The section believes in you too, I’m sure. You were great today, even Mrs Chua complimented you. Truthfully, you have a lot of strengths, you are able to pick up things really fast, and can hold a good and steady tone. What you can improve on now, would be dynamics I suppose. Since you’re playing the part on your own now, it’ll be necessary to play out. I can feel what you’re feeling yeah. Speaking from personal experience, I know it’s difficult to play a part alone, especially since you’re still a sec2. But I did it, it’s not impossible, and in fact, it has really helped me a lot. Playing the first part alone in sec2 has really helped me grow a lot as a person, as a saxophonist. You can’t always rely on a senior, and hide behind a senior. Have to grow, learn to play your part along. Musically, I know there’s no one to tune to yeah, listen to the people around you playing the same part, they’ll help a lot, trust me. If you don’t know how to play a part, just listen. Unless it’s a solo or something, there’ll definitely be some instrument playing the same part as you yeah! With your ears, seriously, nothing is impossible. Lastly, I would like to end of with telling you that, these changes happen really unexpectedly, I know. But we also have to adapt to them, and make the best out of what you have. You can’t always get what you want sometimes. Smile yeah, the world will be a happier place with people appreciating what they have and not crying out because they don’t have a small something else. You have what it takes, trust me, jiayou yeah!

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